Women
It is amazing the depths another man will sink in pursuit of the love of a woman. Well maybe not even love. Helen of Troy had the beauty that launched a thousand Greek ships against Troy. Marc Anthony left his best friend Julius for Cleopatra, Arthur, Lancelot and Gwenievere ring bells to anyone?
Sure you read that and say Xavier those are all folk lore or sensationalized stories from history, that’s true but have you ever been betrayed by a friend in pursuit of someone you were attached to? I have
The person I am talking about shall remain nameless because frankly I don’t do lip service for shady folks. So my friend (I clearly use that term loosely and in blatant sarcasm) has always had a history of going after girls that were associated with me. Whether they were high school crushes, ex girlfriends, friends, or whatever else you could think of if they had some history with me he was going to try and make himself their future. Heck we even met this way. He was in pursuit of a girl I had been interested in for a long time who was a huge flirt. It is what she did, she loved the attention. In hindsight I see why she and I never made it but nonetheless his first interaction with me was shortly after he moved here. He told me that he wanted her and if I ever touched her he would make me regret it. I found his idle threats funny especially since immediately after she came and sat with me to eat lunch. We ended up getting to know one another since he lived close to one of my good friends in the same apartment complex. We put aside our squabbles over that girl and forged a friendship. He then spent the next few years trying to hook up with girls that I still was friends with but no longer dated, which honestly I was fine with. I wanted to see my friend find a girl that made him happy and if he made a female friend of mine happy then so be it. I always believe that things happen for a reason and maybe the reason they both met me was to meet each other.
Then came C. C and I dated casually for a couple of months. Dinners, movies, that sort of thing I was a young lad pure of heart in those days and still getting over being the kid that got picked last in kickball. I was painfully shy at times and incredibly afraid of rejection. I don't think I will ever get over the latter. After a couple months of seeing each other I found that C had a boyfriend back at her old college, that she had dumped maybe the day before she told me. After that things just slid downhill a couple of weeks and we went our separate ways but still stayed friends. Through hanging out with me she met my own personal Brutus as well. After her and I split he went on the prowl, completely ignoring his semi relationship with Kay. Kay I think mostly in retaliation made a few passes at me but I never acted on them because honestly I don’t ever really want to be with someone who has had feelings for a friend. Kay then fades out of the story and goes on to get married and have a kid. So C and Brutus end up dating and moving in with one another. C got mad at me because I told her not to ever break my friend’s heart so Brutus and I didn’t talk for about a year. Well 5 years later C decides she doesn’t want to be with Brutus anymore and kicks him out of her parent’s house. So Brutus with all his free time and lack of friends (due to the fact that he only hung out with C and her friends and family) decides to hang out with me a lot more which was fine I figured we are both in our mid twenties and adults it might be fun to have more guy friends around.
Ironically Kay gets a divorce and wants to find me and attempt to pursue me once again. She contacts Brutus and rekindles a friendship with him. When Kay asks him how I am doing he launches a full verbal assault on my character (strike 1). He tells her that I don’t bring girls around him because any girl would leave me for him. That I dump girls for no reason (not true). I may be brash, evil and self absorbed sometimes but I never have set out with malicious intents against anyone. Kay then emails me and fills me in on all of this and at first I take it with a grain of salt. Kay has always been dramatic after all. Brutus then came clean himself and attempts to pin the blame on her after she told him she wanted to find and date me. Kay and I begin talking and develop feelings. However in my gut I know it wouldn’t work for whatever reason and I leave it at that. Brutus keeps contacting Kay despite her wishes to the contrary and my asking him to leave her alone. Brutus even asked her to hang out with him the other day which made her call me for aid. I have another discussion with him about it and he says he will stop. Well that night Brutus sends her an email saying "Xavier can't control who you hang out with, just like he can't control who I talk to either." He further goes on to say that if he and her were friends or if anything else transpired between them he would keep his mouth shut and not tell me. Who knew that while I was defending him against some girl on twitter that he would use my open back to store his daggers.
The worst part is when he was asked about why he did these things his answers were a string of clichés "I don't know why I did it" "Who cares I’m done talking to her” (After the 85th time she told you know and forwarded me the emails?) "Sometimes you hurt the ones you care about the most” He tried to pull the pity card and even the threaten suicide card on me, just like he did to C when she left him. Then I see on twitter where he is saying that losing friends is all about growing in life. Explain to me how hurting your friend is all a part of the growing process in life? He even had the nerve to call and ask if I was done taking my misplaced anger out on him. I almost lost it. How is my anger misplaced if I am angry at hurtful words from a friend? I wasn’t even angry just hurt. Now I am furious. A back can only hold so many knives before you hit a never and congrats buddy you hit mine.
So I am sorry for a verbose summary of my petty betrayals in life. I am hurting needed to get it off my chest and out of my mind. Mostly I wrote it for the people that I know that keep asking me what’s wrong. .So instead of rehashing it 100 times the next couple days they can read this. If you don't like what I said I am sorry. Maybe you will like something else I write. Dang even as I write this it is so hard to just realize that someone I grew up with as a teen is out of my life for good. I mean there is other times I didn’t write about such as when he hit on my girlfriend and I had to come between them so she wouldn’t maul him in a parking lot. When he told a girl I was cheating on her and I wasn’t. It is a long list of transgressions they are just getting more real and vicious, and more importantly all to frequent these days. It is a cancer a painful cancer on my heart and I had to remove it.
I will try to post some good stuff in the next 24 hours.
Take care of each other. Love your true friends. Don't let a possible romance tarnish something that has been a part of your life for years. Watch UFC. Play Xbox. Don't spoil wolverine origins for me I promised a friend I would wait to see it with them when they move back on the 10th. BBQ, eat your veggies. Take your vitamins. Ok I clearly lost my mind with worldly advice again I apologize. Hope your day is grand
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